Annoying Moment

You lazily drag your butt out of the bed, take a shower, getting ready and off you go for the class only to find out that the class is cancelled. For me, that is the most annoying moment. Why couldn't the lecturer tell us much sooner?!

Oh well, just forget about that. So, here I am in the library writing this post because it's raining heavily outside and I refuse to went through all the hassle and get myself wet. It's been a month (more or less) since I last updated. As I said in my previous post, I've already started my 4th semester and believe me it was a rough time for me. The subjects are getting more and more difficult, not to mention the list of assignments that is getting longer and longer. Not that I'm complaining, but just telling.

Oh well, I need to rush for my next class. See you again next time (soon, hopefully)!

21 years of life

Bismillah...

Salam and good evening to all...

Once again I failed to keep the promise I made to myself that I would definitely update my blog regularly. But hey, life isn't all about writing and updating this blog only. Too many things happened that kept my mind away from writing here. Believe me, countless of time I wanted to write but time is my enemy. Sometimes whenever I had an idea to wrote the time isn't appropriate and when I got the time to write, all my ideas are gone. I ended up signing out without writing anything.

A little update of my life. Currently I'm just starting my second semester for the second year which also means that I'm already in my fourth semester. Four semesters left! Wow... time sure flies so fast. It feels just like only yesterday I registered and now I'm already in my fourth semester. So far things goes normally expect for my results. It was a disaster for two consecutive semester which gives me an earful of ummi's non-stop nagging and lectures.

 Looking at the title, as of today it's been 21 years and 3 days I've been living as the servant of ALLAH, a daughter to my mother and a friend to the people around me. Alhamdulillah praise be to ALLAH for granting me the opportunity to continue my life in this world.

That's all for now. Even though there's so many thing to write about but I'm running out of time. Told you so that time is my worst enemy at the moment. I do hope that I'll be able to write again soon.

Adios!

Tragedy on the second day of Syawal

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious,

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah, we are entering the fifth day of Syawal. Everyone is still enjoying the spirit of Syawal. Praise be to ALLAH for granting us the chance to be here and celebrate the month of Syawal. Alhamdulillah...

During these few days of Syawal, nothing extraordinary happens. Except for one that nearly had my heart stopped working. It was on the second day of Syawal where something happened. I was alone in the house with my grandmother while my mother is out to send my aunt and cousin to the bus station, the other aunt already went back to her husband hometown when I heard a loud noise outside (I am in a room). The noise was loud as if something falls from a high place with a loud thud.

Being the curious me, I went out and the sight before me made my knees weak and my heart beating wildly inside my chest. My grandmother was lying motionless on her stomach on the floor. The first thing that entered my mind is "Nyai pengsan!"

I ran over to her side to check her condition. Luckily she was conscious and I tried to help her get up. That's when I saw a pool of blood on the floor and blood were dripping from her forehead. Panicked, I ran back to the room, grabbing my phone to call my mother and randomly picked a cloth to stop the bleeding. Not long after,a cousin of mine come to visit and she so happened to be a dentist. She's the one who clean the wound on nyai's forehead and suggests that she is to be taken to the clinic or hospital. The wound need to be stitched as it is deep. Long story short, nyai received 6 stitches on her forehead.

To be truth, I was so scared when I saw nyai lying motionless and moreover I'm all alone. Should anything happen, who should I ask for help. In the panicky state, I don't remember anything as I was too anxious to make sure that nyai's all right. I was too panicked that I cried. Luckily, nyai is all fine except the part where she had to receive the stitches. Other than that, she is doing fine considering her old age.

And, I'm surprised at myself for not passing out at the sight of blood, just a bit nauseated by the scent of blood as I always thought that I will pass out when I see blood that is not mine. That is one of the reason that I refuse to become a doctor like my mother asked me to. Just a reminder, things happen so sudden that we do not prepare ourselves for it, which is why we always need to be careful in every steps we take. A moment of recklessness could cause an accident to happen.

Always be careful.

Adios!

A prayer for you

A prayer for you, the flowers of my life from the core of my heart...

May ALLAH be with you at every steps you take, guide you in each decision you make, help you when life gets rough, bless you with more then enough, protect you when you fall, hear you when you call, soothe you when you don't understand...

May you will always be in ALLAH's loving hand, InsyaALLAH.

Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslims around the world.

Ramadhan and Syawal 1433H

18 August 2012 / 29 Ramadhan 1433H

Alhamdulillah, praise be to ALLAH for giving us the chance to live through until this day. Ramadhan is leaving us. I'm thankful to ALLAh for giving me the chance to experience Ramadhan this year. Alhamdulillah...

I've been anticipating the announcement by the Pemegang Cap Mohor Di-Raja or whatever they called it since yesterday. And finally it comes. As expected, tomorrow would be the first day of Syawal and Hari Raya Aidilfitri. It felt like it's just yesterday we are celebrating the month of Ramadhan and now we are welcoming the month of Syawal. Time sure really flies.

Waktu-waktu begini, mungkin ada yang baru nak bertolak pulang atau sudah dalam perjalanan. Highway pasti sesak dengan kenderaan. Atau mungkin juga masih ada yang bersesak di shopping complex, last minute shopping. Tak seperti tahun-tahun lepas, malam raya tahun ini I am still at home, mengemas dan menghias rumah pastinya. Selalunya, malam raya my mum and I dah berada di kampung. Tapi tahun ini kami masih di rumah terchenta mengemas rumah. Esok pagi-pagi lepas Subuh baru akan bertolak balik kampung.

Selalu, waktu-waktu macam ni dekat kampung, satu rumah sibuk dengan pelbagai aktiviti. Rebut ketupat, pasang langsir, kemas rumah, siapkan bahan-bahan masakan untuk santapan pagi raya, mop lantai dan sebagainya. Kebiasaannya, untuk ketupat lebih senang beli yang instant, tinggal rebut. Kalau anyam pun tak banyak. Adalah dalam 20-30 biji. Masa kecil-kecil dulu, nyai masih sihat kerisik untuk masak rendang kami buat sendiri. Dari petik kelapa, kopek, parut dan goreng hampas kelapa tu sampailah ke tumbuk hampas kelapa yang dah digoreng sampai keluar minyak. Sayalah yang jadi tukang tumbuk kelapa goreng tu. Maklum anak dara sorang. Kerja-kerja dapur memang saya yang kena tolong. Itu cerita berbelas tahun dulu. Sekarang, nak masak rendang cuma pakai kerisik instant dalam paket tu. Senang dan mudah.

Persiapan raya tahun ini sederhana saja, tak ada mewah-mewah. Baju kami anak-beranak cuma beli sepasang saja untuk dipakai pada raya pertama. Hari-hari berikutnya ulang pakai baju raya tahun-tahun lepas. Persiapan untuk rumah pun biasa-biasa saja. Langsir recycle untuk entah tahun keberapa, tak ada shopping perabot baru. Kuih raya pun beli ala kadar, cukuplah nak menjamu tetamu yang datang.

As Ramadhan is coming to an end, let's hope that we end our Ramadhan with the best deed, and with a clean heart. May ALLAH bless us in all good ways.

Eid Mubarak to all Muslims around the world.

short update

Catatan terakhir pada 27 April 2012. Hampir sebulan tanpa sebarang catatan. Betapa pantas masa berlalu...

Semakin menghampiri ke penghujung semester, semakin bertambah beban yang terpaksa digalas. Peperiksaan akhir tinggal lebih kurang 2 minggu. Masa yang tinggal perlu dimanfaatkan sebaik mungkin. Moga terus dikurniakan kekuatan untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawab yang tergalas. Ada masa, memang rasa nak terduduk dengan macam-macam tugas yang dipertanggungjawabkan. Mungkin semester depan perlu cool down sikit.

I am just hoping for my success in the coming exam.

overdose excited

Remember that I said something about buying a new smart phone hand phone? Konon-konon boleh selalu update this blog, boleh selalu update status di Facebook, boleh tweet dekat Twitter. Well, today I've tried to update using my phone. But, Blogger new inter phase is making it difficult to do so! I ended up giving up and here I am, in the library updating.

That's just the picture. Mine is white. Actually, I want the black color but the salesman said that they have run out of stock. What can you expect when you buy at PC Fair. Which is why I ended up with the white one since I wanted it sooooo badly that I couldn't wait.

Today is the first day of PBAKL. Couldn't wait to go there next week. Unlike before, this time I'll be going with my friends. There's three of us altogether, itupun kalau yang sorang tu jadi ikut. My mum is not coming as she had class on Friday. Pertama kali berjalan dengan kawan-kawan sendiri, Excited! Train ticket dah beli, tinggal angkat beg. Hopefully nothing comes in our way and my other friend is able to come.

 Train ticket

lupa

Big gap between updates. Not that I forget, I always wanted to write something.

Idea berkejar-kejaran masuk ke kepala, sedang sibuk dengan tugasan dan kuliah.

Masa tangan gatal nak menulis, idea terbang dibawa dek angin.

Kadang-kadang teringat nak menulis, kemudian terus lupa.

Konon ada smartphone boleh update selalu, masa selalu mencemburui.

Akhirnya, tak ada perkataan yang boleh dirangka.

Already in the second phase of the semester.

Assignment yang bergunung tinggi masih menunggu giliran untuk disudahkan.

Saya ada tanggungjawab lain yang perlu dilunaskan terlebih dahulu sebelum si 'diari maya' ini.

Hope there will be a new update some time soon.

p/s: What's with blogger new inter phase? It makes me even difficult to find this page!

short update

It's been a long time since my last update.

I've just gone through my post since the early days. And I had to admit, memang sangat kebudak-budakan dan sungguh tak matang! Somehow, I felt embarrassed. But never mind. Dah nama pun masa tu masih budak sekolah yang masih berhingus dan tak matang.

Sekarang, dah masuk semester kedua pengajian dan masih berusaha untuk struggle dan sesuaikan diri dengan suasana pembelajaran di universiti. Memang hectic, busy, tak teratur, tak terurus. Waktu ni baru nak betul-betul mengaplikasikan konsep pengurusan masa yang betul! Mana nak kejar kelas, assignments, tutorials, test... Setiap hari akan berhadapan dengan stress dan tekanan yang bukan sedikit.

Just pray that I will have the strength to complete my studies. 6 semesters to go.

3 loooooong years of university life...

is it...

Is it possible for someone to lose their common sense?

Is it hard to complete your assignment in time? And do it perfectly?

Is it hard to open the books and make some references?

Is it hard to give cooperation when you are working in a group?

Is it wrong to expect high of others? I would do that much to others!

Is it wrong?

Now I really learn to not put your hopes too high. The higher the more you will feel disappointed. The more you expect from people, the less you will get. I've been told to give more and expect less.

And that's what I've been doing. Patience is the key as they said. Too much patience. After all the patience, the only thing that I could say is 'Thank you for giving me this kind of shit!'

Now I know what life is all about and I learn it the hard way.

bored

It's almost 5 in the morning. And I wake up early to do last minute revisions or rather last minute memorising! Currently, I am reading the topics for Introduction to Computer. And I had to say, it was boring, which explains why I am writing this in the middle of the morning!

Again, just a short update to relieve some of my stress and to get rid of my boredness!

Wish me luck!

exam stress

Yup, currently I'm having an exam stress! So much to read, so much to memorise, so much to understand, so much to explain and so on.

It's already week 8, which is pretty much of half of the semester. Oh, I'm anticipating for the holidays!

Just a short update to get away from the books and notes for a while. Wish me with all the luck!

Dear ALLAH, please grant me all the strength that I need! Bless all the knowledge that were bestowed upon me!

1 month and 21 days

1 month and 21 days!

51 days!

7 weeks!

I'm already an university student. Well, so far life has been well. Am still adapting to the new environment, making new friends, studying etc...

A little bit of what has been happening all those days.

Minggu Transformasi Mahasiswa (MTM)

Seriously, this is the most boring transformation week that I had gone through (no offense to the organisers). Agenda utama MTM kali ni ceramah, ceramah, ceramah, taklimat, taklimat that I could swear that my ears were going to be numb from all the talking. Not to mention that the time management by the organisers was soooo.... if u get what I mean!

Lecture

For this semester, I registered for 7 subject with 14 credit hours. The seniors were surprised as according to them seniors, it was too short. During their time they had to take up to 18 credit hours. Well, the syllabus during their time and ours were different. Their course were just for 3 years of study, while for us it takes 4 years until we could get our degree. InsyaALLAH, in 4 years time, I will graduate with a Bachelor in Quantity Surveying!


As for now, the subject that I least like (using the word hate is too strong!) is Draughtmanship! Sebagai seorang yang tak ada latar belakang teknikal dan tak pernah belajar lukisan kejuruteraan, subjek ni memang agak bermasalah bagi saya! We had to draw according to the architecture and engineer drawing that we had acquire. Believe me, the first time I saw the drawings, I was like "What the hell is this?!" Up until now, I'm still facing some problem to draw accordingly. There were times that I feel like quitting and change into other subject. But every time I would tell myself that I could do this! Nothing goes easy in life, and that's what makes it more interesting!



The next subject that's on the list is Principles of Economics! For all my life, I focused on studying Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Mathematics but NEVER Economics! During the consultation with my Penasihat Akademik, he suggested that I drop out Mathematics as an elective subject as I did get an A during my matriculation level. Instead, he told me to take Economics to learn something new as Mathematics that were taught were so easy. So, I decided to follow his advice as later, there were more Economics related to construction that I will be learning. It's best that I understand and know the most basic of Economics! But the truth is, I don't like to study about Economics. I would rather take Mathematics as it is something that I had learn before.

Every now and then, everyone said to me that university life is the most interesting part of all in our life. I was told that I should try my best to enjoy university life to maximum so that it would be the most memorable memory of all in my life. But for now, I'm still adapting and I realised that I beginning to like my university life bit by bit.

Well, that's all for now! Till the next update (ALLAH knows when!)!

Eid Mubarak!

Selamat hari raya Aidilfitri!

i hate packing

Medical check up?

Done!

Stamp?

Done!

Agreement?

Done.

Packing?

Definitely not done!

Urgh! I hate packing!

aktiviti sepanjang cuti

If someone asked me, what did I do during these four months since I finished my matriculation programme, I must say NOTHING!

Literally nothing.

Tak bekerja, just lazying around. Cuma memerap dalam rumah, jadi penganggur berjaya. Konon-konon nak spend time with my mother after a year of being separated. Mengada-ngada! I know!

And, not to forget, last month we went to Sabah for a week. Ummi said, this is a treat for both of us. For me, this is my treat after struggling with books and examination for 10++ long months and the result are satisfying. Tak sia-sia penat belajar!

What a life!

Percaya Padaku - Ungu

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu

Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu

Hingga waktu menjemputku

Percaya Padaku - Ungu

Seriously. Pertama kali aku dengar lagu ni, aku terus jatuh suka. Dengan rentak dia yang catchy, lirik dia yang simple tapi bermakna (pada aku). Dan aku paling suka bahagian korus. Sangat sweet okay kalau ada someone yang menyanyi dan dedicate this song to you!

Kalau nak diikutkan, aku bukan jenis yang ambil kisah tentang trend lagu. Pada aku, asal sedap telinga aku mendengar, lirik dia aku suka, aku dengar. Tak kisahlah lagu artis seberang ke, tanah air ke, Hollywood ke, janji sedap untuk didengar. Sebab aku dengar musik untuk relaks. Bukan untuk menyemakkan kepala aku yang memang sedia serabut. And for that, heavy metal memang tak masuk dalam senarai 'my comfort song'. Bikin kepala makin serabut jadinya!

Aku tak tahu apa yang ku rasakan
Dalam hatiku saat pertama kali
Lihat dirimu, melihatmu
Seluruh tubuhku terpaku dan membisu
Detak jantungku berdebar tak menentu
Sepertinya aku tak ingin berlalu

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku
Ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Saat ku tahu kau akan pergi jauh
Izinkan aku tuk selalu menantimu
Untuk katakan ku ingin dirimu
Agar kau tahu betapa ku terlalu
Mencintaimu aku akan menunggu
Hingga dirimu kembali untukku

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku
Ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Tolonglah aku bagaimana diriku
Ungkapkan itu rasa yang membelenggu
Dalam hatiku ku cinta padamu

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku
Ku berikan cintaku juga sayangku
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu
Percaya padaku ku kan menjagamu
Hingga waktu menjemputku

Are You An Easy Girl

Guys Think You're Hard to Get

You're the furthest thing from easy. You're proper, reserved, and maybe even a little shy. While you don't need a mini skirt and high heels to attract Mr. Right, being a little more flirty couldn't hurt. A sexy top or little smile may encourage new guys to approach you - and you'll still come off as a nice girl.

Are You An Easy Girl?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Sahih ke tidak? Itu perlu tanya pada kaum Adam because I never knew about this!

Hurm, maybe because I always show them a straight, stern and serious face?

25 days to go

Sekarang dah hampir 10 Ramadhan. Bermakna apabila tambah tolak darab bahagi, tinggal 25 hari saja lagi sebelum aku bergelar mahasiswa UTM. Ya, Universiti Teknologi Malaysia kampus Johor Bahru. Reaksi orang sekeliling?

"UTM? Dekatnya!"

Rata-rata itu reaksi yang aku terima. Aku biasa-biasa saja. Belajar kat mana-mana pun sama bagi aku. Yang penting ilmu. Ada sesetengah yang tahu, aku dapat tawaran USM. Dan aku tolak. Ya, aku tahu USM tu APEX universiti. One of the top universiti in Malaysia. Aku tolak bukan pasal jauh, tapi kursus yang ditawarkan bukanlah kursus yang aku minat walaupun ia tersenarai dalam pilihan aku. Dan kursus yang aku minat pula, aku tak dapat sebab aku tak hadir temuduga. Jadi aku tunggu keputusan UPU keluar. Maka, tercampaklah aku ke UTM yang sekangkang kera dari rumah tu.

Bak kata mak aku,

"Tak kisahlah belajar mana-mana. As long as you get your degree and finish your PhD before you're 30."

Dan aku hanya mampu tersengih mendengar ayat yang entah berapa banyak kali singgah di gegendang telinga.

Di kala ini, semua orang tengah sibuk mengisi borang. Aku masih rileks lagi. Borang penjamin, saksi, medical check up semua tu aku tak buat lagi. Selamba kan? Sebab aku berpegang pada ayat "Masa panjang lagi!".

bored

One word.

Bored!