Are You An Easy Girl

Guys Think You're Hard to Get

You're the furthest thing from easy. You're proper, reserved, and maybe even a little shy. While you don't need a mini skirt and high heels to attract Mr. Right, being a little more flirty couldn't hurt. A sexy top or little smile may encourage new guys to approach you - and you'll still come off as a nice girl.

Are You An Easy Girl?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Sahih ke tidak? Itu perlu tanya pada kaum Adam because I never knew about this!

Hurm, maybe because I always show them a straight, stern and serious face?

25 days to go

Sekarang dah hampir 10 Ramadhan. Bermakna apabila tambah tolak darab bahagi, tinggal 25 hari saja lagi sebelum aku bergelar mahasiswa UTM. Ya, Universiti Teknologi Malaysia kampus Johor Bahru. Reaksi orang sekeliling?

"UTM? Dekatnya!"

Rata-rata itu reaksi yang aku terima. Aku biasa-biasa saja. Belajar kat mana-mana pun sama bagi aku. Yang penting ilmu. Ada sesetengah yang tahu, aku dapat tawaran USM. Dan aku tolak. Ya, aku tahu USM tu APEX universiti. One of the top universiti in Malaysia. Aku tolak bukan pasal jauh, tapi kursus yang ditawarkan bukanlah kursus yang aku minat walaupun ia tersenarai dalam pilihan aku. Dan kursus yang aku minat pula, aku tak dapat sebab aku tak hadir temuduga. Jadi aku tunggu keputusan UPU keluar. Maka, tercampaklah aku ke UTM yang sekangkang kera dari rumah tu.

Bak kata mak aku,

"Tak kisahlah belajar mana-mana. As long as you get your degree and finish your PhD before you're 30."

Dan aku hanya mampu tersengih mendengar ayat yang entah berapa banyak kali singgah di gegendang telinga.

Di kala ini, semua orang tengah sibuk mengisi borang. Aku masih rileks lagi. Borang penjamin, saksi, medical check up semua tu aku tak buat lagi. Selamba kan? Sebab aku berpegang pada ayat "Masa panjang lagi!".

bored

One word.

Bored!

Ramadhan di KMNS

Alhamdulillah, it's been two days since Ramadhan arrived. Baru dua hari, masih boleh bertahan.

Tiba-tiba, terkenang Ramadhan tahun lepas di KMNS. Pertama kali menyambut Ramadhan sendiri tanpa ummi. Agak sedih tapi excited dalam masa yang sama. Sepanjang-panjang aku hidup 19 tahun atas muka bumi ni, itulah pengalaman pertama aku. Selalu, 1 Ramadhan kami akan pulang ke kampung dan bersahur dan berbuka dengan nenek, pakcik, makcik dan sepupu tiga orang tu.

Setiap petang, kunjungan ke bazar adalah wajib. Sama ada lepas kelas atau lepas Asar. Itupun terpulang kalau larat nak turun naik tangga yang tinggi amat itu. Kalau tidak, habis saja kelas terus serbu bazar walaupun aku habis kelas pukul 4 petang. Ya, pukul 4 petang aku dah serbu bazar disebabkan sifat malas aku nak mendaki Batu Caves yang tinggi tu. Tak percaya? Tengok gambar di bawah.

Tangga Batu Caves yang terkenal di kalangan pelajar KMNS

Selalu aku macam tak cukup nafas apabila selamat sampai ke puncak. Kalau tengah puasa lagilah. Tenaga habis naik tangga ni sahaja. Rasa macam tak nak naik. Nak duduk bawah tunggu kren datang angkat naik atas. Mula-mula rasa macam nak menangis bila tiap-tiap hari kena panjat tangga ni. Mujur bilik dekat first floor. Kalau tidak mau aku meraung nak balik tiap-tiap hari. Tapi, lama-lama dah biasa sampaikan tiap-tiap hari aku balik bilik untuk solat Zuhur. Even waktu Ramadhan. Penat tak penat, alah bisa tegal biasa.

Apapun, pengalaman berpuasa sebagai perantau memang manis. Tiap-tiap hari, aku dan roommates akan berbuka di bilik depan. Siapa kata makan ramai-ramai tak seronok? Sangat seronok okay! Setiap hari kami akan berbalah siapa yang akan lead untuk baca doa. Tapi yang pasti setiap orang dapat giliran masing-masing. Kemudian, kami solat Maghrib berjemaah. Ini pun satu lagi masalah. Hari-hari berbalah siapa patut jadi imam. Again, setiap orang ada giliran masing-masing. Bersesak kami enam orang dalam ruang yang limited. Tapi pengalaman tu memang seronok.

Waktu sahur pula, aku sahur sendirian. Sebabnya roommates aku yang Muslim dua orang tu tak suka bangun sahur. Yang sorang lagi pulak Chinese, dah tentu-tentu dia tak bangun sahur. Menu sahur pula tak tentu. Tapi biasanya roti. 3 keping roti, secawan air panas cukup untuk alas perut. Sekali dua, melantak maggi. Ya, pagi-pagi buta, pukul 5 pagi membaham maggi. Dapat tahu dek roommate, kena marah. Lepas tu sakit perut. Memang padan muka! Tapi itulah pengalaman, kan?

Masih ada 28 hari lagi Ramadhan. Sama-sama kita berusaha untuk jadikan Ramadhan kali ini lebih baik dari yang sebelum-sebelumnya.

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah...

Ramadhan datang lagi. Syukur kerana masih dipanjangkan umur untuk terus berada di dalam bulan yang mulia ini.

Selamat berpuasa buat semua umat Islam. Moga Ramadhan kali ini membawa seribu barakah buat semua.

comeback

It's been long. Very.... long.

Actually, I'm beyond words after I haven't been writing for God knows how long.

Well, a lot of things happened. And I've been through another phase of growing up. And slowly, I will write about them one by one.

Seriously, I love to read other people stories as sometimes it gives me something to ponder about and something for me to learn. So, if there's a soul who'll read this humble *rolling eyes* rambling of mine, please excuse me if my writing are not to your liking. After all, this is my own personal blog.

Which is why I called this as my RACONTEUR RANT.

new

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious

Salam

I've just changed to look of this blog. Cute, isn't it? And most important of all, it's purple! Thanks to AeroAngel. I had a great time editing it here and there.

Looks like I'll be sticking with this for a while.

finals

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious,

Salam,

I have to admit that I am very worried about my first semester examination result. I felt like I've just failed all my papers. They were pretty hard.

I've never felt this devastated before in my life. And when I said never, I meant it. Not even when I was taking my SPM results, because somehow, I knew I've made it. But right now, I can't even sure that I've made. All my confidence have been shattered into pieces. This feeling were so strong that I don't have the confidence to get a good result. And even stronger, I don't like the idea of being kicked out of college at the slightest bit. Well, no one would like that, isn't it?

Leave out the embarrassment, I was more afraid to disappoint my mom. I felt like I have failed her and just threw her confidence and hope in me out of the window.

I talked to my mother about this. She just said it's okay, as long as I've done my very best. Leave the rest to ALLAH and never stop praying and hoping for a good result.

I guess, that's what I can do right now.

Now and then, my stomach tightened at every thought of it.

Still, the final would be unknown until the time has come.

Dear ALLAH, please grant me what's best for me for you know better.

of being good

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

Salam,

Suddenly, I remembered the phrase that I came up with. Haha...

It causes hell to do good and be good.

I just blurted it out while I was having a discussion with my friends.

Different people will have different meaning of being good, and I have my own definition of the word good itself.

The world changes, so does people. We, as a merely human being tend to change according to our surrounding. Seeing people being good, we tend to be like them. And likewise.

As much as I hate it, but it's true. Untuk menjadi baik dan berbuat baik bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Susah! Payah! Perit! Semua rasa bergumpal menjadi satu. Apatah lagi bila nak mengajak orang lain untuk sama membuat kebaikan. Lagi payah bila empunya badan sendiri tak sudi untuk berubah. Berganda-ganda rasa putus asa bergumpal dalam hati. Lama-kelamaan, hanya mampu memandang dari jauh, dan mengharap yang terbaik.

Ya ALLAH, tetapkan hatiku untuk terus berada di jalanmu!

comeback

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

So, it's been a loooooooooong time, huh! Well, let's just say that the blogger is currently busy with her study, assignments, homeworks and the list go on... She has conveniently forgotten all about this blog of her.

Lama tak mencoret kata, canggung jadinya.

This should do. Just want to tell you that I'm still alive and perfectly well and am enjoying my life at college.

Till then, adios!