Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan

Alhamdulillah...

Ramadhan datang lagi. Syukur kerana masih dipanjangkan umur untuk terus berada di dalam bulan yang mulia ini.

Selamat berpuasa buat semua umat Islam. Moga Ramadhan kali ini membawa seribu barakah buat semua.

comeback

It's been long. Very.... long.

Actually, I'm beyond words after I haven't been writing for God knows how long.

Well, a lot of things happened. And I've been through another phase of growing up. And slowly, I will write about them one by one.

Seriously, I love to read other people stories as sometimes it gives me something to ponder about and something for me to learn. So, if there's a soul who'll read this humble *rolling eyes* rambling of mine, please excuse me if my writing are not to your liking. After all, this is my own personal blog.

Which is why I called this as my RACONTEUR RANT.

new

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious

Salam

I've just changed to look of this blog. Cute, isn't it? And most important of all, it's purple! Thanks to AeroAngel. I had a great time editing it here and there.

Looks like I'll be sticking with this for a while.

finals

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious,

Salam,

I have to admit that I am very worried about my first semester examination result. I felt like I've just failed all my papers. They were pretty hard.

I've never felt this devastated before in my life. And when I said never, I meant it. Not even when I was taking my SPM results, because somehow, I knew I've made it. But right now, I can't even sure that I've made. All my confidence have been shattered into pieces. This feeling were so strong that I don't have the confidence to get a good result. And even stronger, I don't like the idea of being kicked out of college at the slightest bit. Well, no one would like that, isn't it?

Leave out the embarrassment, I was more afraid to disappoint my mom. I felt like I have failed her and just threw her confidence and hope in me out of the window.

I talked to my mother about this. She just said it's okay, as long as I've done my very best. Leave the rest to ALLAH and never stop praying and hoping for a good result.

I guess, that's what I can do right now.

Now and then, my stomach tightened at every thought of it.

Still, the final would be unknown until the time has come.

Dear ALLAH, please grant me what's best for me for you know better.

of being good

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

Salam,

Suddenly, I remembered the phrase that I came up with. Haha...

It causes hell to do good and be good.

I just blurted it out while I was having a discussion with my friends.

Different people will have different meaning of being good, and I have my own definition of the word good itself.

The world changes, so does people. We, as a merely human being tend to change according to our surrounding. Seeing people being good, we tend to be like them. And likewise.

As much as I hate it, but it's true. Untuk menjadi baik dan berbuat baik bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Susah! Payah! Perit! Semua rasa bergumpal menjadi satu. Apatah lagi bila nak mengajak orang lain untuk sama membuat kebaikan. Lagi payah bila empunya badan sendiri tak sudi untuk berubah. Berganda-ganda rasa putus asa bergumpal dalam hati. Lama-kelamaan, hanya mampu memandang dari jauh, dan mengharap yang terbaik.

Ya ALLAH, tetapkan hatiku untuk terus berada di jalanmu!

comeback

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

So, it's been a loooooooooong time, huh! Well, let's just say that the blogger is currently busy with her study, assignments, homeworks and the list go on... She has conveniently forgotten all about this blog of her.

Lama tak mencoret kata, canggung jadinya.

This should do. Just want to tell you that I'm still alive and perfectly well and am enjoying my life at college.

Till then, adios!

Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan

As the title goes.

Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan will be my new 'home'.

New place, new friends, new environment, new experience, everything will be new!

Am hoping for the best!

Dear ALLAH, guide me the way!

say : ALHAMDULILLAH

Bismillah...

Redha dan bersyukur.

Itulah perasaan saya sewaktu menatap slip keputusan SPM seminggu yang lepas. Apa yang tertera, jauh lebih baik dari apa yang saya harapkan. Sungguh! Mungkin keputusan saya tak secemerlang rakan-rakan yang lain tapi saya sudah cukup bersyukur dan berpuas hati dengan apa yang saya dapat.

10 A 2 B

Jauh... jauh lebih baik dari apa yang saya sangkakan. Harapan? Susah semestinya saya inginkan straight A's berabuk! Dan saya tak berasa terkilan atau kecewa dengan apa yang saya dapat. Saya juga tak berasa kecil dengan nombor-nombor besar yang diperoleh rakan-rakan saya.

Saya juga maklum, ada segelintir rakan-rakan yang berasa frust dan kecewa. Tapi ingatlah, apa yang kita dapat itulah yang terbaik untuk kita!

As people always said, ALLAH knows the best and HE gives you the best you can get.

I say, I may not get the best, but I've done my best!

ALHAMDULILLAH!

debar

Bismillah...

Penantian semakin tiba ke penghujung. Debar di dada seperti dipalu!

Ya ALLAH, kurniakan aku natijah yang terbaik!


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thank you

Bismillah...

Terima kasih...

Ya ALLAH,
kerana masih memanjang usiaku, membenarkan aku menghirup secebis udara di bumimu yang luas terbentang ini,

Ummi,
kerana bersusah payah mengandung dan melahirkan saya,
kerana berhempas pulas dan bersabung nyawa melahirkan saya ke dunia ALLAH ini,
kerana mendidik dan menjaga saya sehingga ke hari ini,
untuk setiap doa yang dipohon,
untuk setiap titis air susu yang dihisap,
untuk segalanya!

Rakan-rakan,
untuk ucapan kalian,
untuk ingatan kalian,
untuk kesabaran kalian,

Terima kasih!
Thank You!
Syukran!
Xie Xie!

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