of being good

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

Salam,

Suddenly, I remembered the phrase that I came up with. Haha...

It causes hell to do good and be good.

I just blurted it out while I was having a discussion with my friends.

Different people will have different meaning of being good, and I have my own definition of the word good itself.

The world changes, so does people. We, as a merely human being tend to change according to our surrounding. Seeing people being good, we tend to be like them. And likewise.

As much as I hate it, but it's true. Untuk menjadi baik dan berbuat baik bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Susah! Payah! Perit! Semua rasa bergumpal menjadi satu. Apatah lagi bila nak mengajak orang lain untuk sama membuat kebaikan. Lagi payah bila empunya badan sendiri tak sudi untuk berubah. Berganda-ganda rasa putus asa bergumpal dalam hati. Lama-kelamaan, hanya mampu memandang dari jauh, dan mengharap yang terbaik.

Ya ALLAH, tetapkan hatiku untuk terus berada di jalanmu!

comeback

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

So, it's been a loooooooooong time, huh! Well, let's just say that the blogger is currently busy with her study, assignments, homeworks and the list go on... She has conveniently forgotten all about this blog of her.

Lama tak mencoret kata, canggung jadinya.

This should do. Just want to tell you that I'm still alive and perfectly well and am enjoying my life at college.

Till then, adios!

Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan

As the title goes.

Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan will be my new 'home'.

New place, new friends, new environment, new experience, everything will be new!

Am hoping for the best!

Dear ALLAH, guide me the way!

say : ALHAMDULILLAH

Bismillah...

Redha dan bersyukur.

Itulah perasaan saya sewaktu menatap slip keputusan SPM seminggu yang lepas. Apa yang tertera, jauh lebih baik dari apa yang saya harapkan. Sungguh! Mungkin keputusan saya tak secemerlang rakan-rakan yang lain tapi saya sudah cukup bersyukur dan berpuas hati dengan apa yang saya dapat.

10 A 2 B

Jauh... jauh lebih baik dari apa yang saya sangkakan. Harapan? Susah semestinya saya inginkan straight A's berabuk! Dan saya tak berasa terkilan atau kecewa dengan apa yang saya dapat. Saya juga tak berasa kecil dengan nombor-nombor besar yang diperoleh rakan-rakan saya.

Saya juga maklum, ada segelintir rakan-rakan yang berasa frust dan kecewa. Tapi ingatlah, apa yang kita dapat itulah yang terbaik untuk kita!

As people always said, ALLAH knows the best and HE gives you the best you can get.

I say, I may not get the best, but I've done my best!

ALHAMDULILLAH!

debar

Bismillah...

Penantian semakin tiba ke penghujung. Debar di dada seperti dipalu!

Ya ALLAH, kurniakan aku natijah yang terbaik!


nota kaki : change to public post!

thank you

Bismillah...

Terima kasih...

Ya ALLAH,
kerana masih memanjang usiaku, membenarkan aku menghirup secebis udara di bumimu yang luas terbentang ini,

Ummi,
kerana bersusah payah mengandung dan melahirkan saya,
kerana berhempas pulas dan bersabung nyawa melahirkan saya ke dunia ALLAH ini,
kerana mendidik dan menjaga saya sehingga ke hari ini,
untuk setiap doa yang dipohon,
untuk setiap titis air susu yang dihisap,
untuk segalanya!

Rakan-rakan,
untuk ucapan kalian,
untuk ingatan kalian,
untuk kesabaran kalian,

Terima kasih!
Thank You!
Syukran!
Xie Xie!

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study mood

- Study mood? Tebiat ke apa?

+ Study kemendenya? SPM kan dah habis!

- Hmm... study...


Haha... saya perlu study untuk ambil ujian undang-undang jalan raya.

Wish me luck!

its over

In the name of ALLAH the most Gracious...

The time has come. Fuh! I can hardly believe it!

There's so many things I want to write about during my absence [literally] these few months. It's not that I don't want to but every time I wanted to write something, the ideas suddenly vanished. In the end, I ended up writing nothing and signed out. How I miss writing in here!

Well, naturally, a lot of things happened during this period of time. We'll go one by one.

First and foremost, SPM is finally over. Yeah, it's OVER! When the invigilator said, "Baiklah calon, masa menjawab telah tamat. Sila letakkan pen anda. Kertas jawapan akan dikutip sekarang." [trust me to still remember this], I felt very delighted and the smile cannot be wiped off my face. For eleven years I have been waiting for this day to come, and it's finally here. And it also means another thing.

SCHOOL IS OVER!

Although it is the most thing I most anticipated for a long time, turns out that up until this day I still cannot hold the fact that I am no longer a school student. No more piles of homework, extra classes, waking up early to school and most importantly, no more exams! For me, exams is one of the things that could kill!

I am somewhat reluctant to leave school. Even though I once had the thought to leave the school, but ALLAH knows what is best for me and let me to be in there until I finishes my high school. I am really going to miss my class, my teachers, my classmates, and everything.

There, I do not only learn academics subjects, but I also learn to be a better human, a daughter, a student, a friend and a better Muslim. It's the place that I first learn how to walk in this world before I start running. Experience really taught me a lot.

And of course I am most reluctant to be separated from my friends. Especially 'Imtithal'ians and 'Iftikhar'ians girls.

Sofia, Maryam R, Maryam N, Raden, Fatimah, Hanani, Soleha, Alifah, Safiah, Najihah, Farhana, Nadia, Zatil, Kak Syeera, Shafiyah...

I'll definitely miss you guys.

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This is scheduled post. Memang sengaja nak post malam New Year. As a remark konon-konon memang dah habis sekolah. >.<>

fresh air

(I know this is lame, but still... read it or leave it, ok?)

Finally...

Akhirnya...

After 3 weeks grueling with exam papers, lack of sleep, I feel much more relaxed. But not good enough until I'm done with my war against SPM. Which is much or less a month from now, approximately bila tolak waktu tidur, makan, main, berangan etc...

Cepatnya masa berlalu. Sekejap aja dah bulan September yang dah nak sampai ke penghujung, kemudian Oktober dan jumpalah November. Aaaaaaaa.... Tak taulah kenapa, tapi makin dekat nak SPM makin susah nak terima hakikat saya pelajar tingkatan 5, 17 years old and am a big girl now. Plus the fact that I'm leaving the school.

Masa tingkatan 1 dulu macam tak sabar sangat nak tinggalkan alam persekolahan bila tengok abang kakak semua habis sekolah. Now, when it's about time, berat sangat hati nak tinggalkan sekolah dan alam remaja yang berkaler-kaler. Ada gelap suram terang cerah, dari hitam pekat sampailah ke putih bersih.

I don't to wish grow up. Yet...

Is that possible?

I don't want the time to move any faster than it is already.

Eid Mubarak

Sekadar nak mengucapkan selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin. Segala salah dan silap, bermula dari hujung kaki hingga ke hujung rambut, haraplah dimaafkan. Minta halalkan segala apa yang terlebih dan terkurang.

Moga Aidilfitri kali ini membawa seribu kebahagiaan.

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Periksa percubaan dah tamat. And I'm glad....