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In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious

Salam

I've just changed to look of this blog. Cute, isn't it? And most important of all, it's purple! Thanks to AeroAngel. I had a great time editing it here and there.

Looks like I'll be sticking with this for a while.

finals

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious,

Salam,

I have to admit that I am very worried about my first semester examination result. I felt like I've just failed all my papers. They were pretty hard.

I've never felt this devastated before in my life. And when I said never, I meant it. Not even when I was taking my SPM results, because somehow, I knew I've made it. But right now, I can't even sure that I've made. All my confidence have been shattered into pieces. This feeling were so strong that I don't have the confidence to get a good result. And even stronger, I don't like the idea of being kicked out of college at the slightest bit. Well, no one would like that, isn't it?

Leave out the embarrassment, I was more afraid to disappoint my mom. I felt like I have failed her and just threw her confidence and hope in me out of the window.

I talked to my mother about this. She just said it's okay, as long as I've done my very best. Leave the rest to ALLAH and never stop praying and hoping for a good result.

I guess, that's what I can do right now.

Now and then, my stomach tightened at every thought of it.

Still, the final would be unknown until the time has come.

Dear ALLAH, please grant me what's best for me for you know better.

of being good

In the name of ALLAH The Most Gracious...

Salam,

Suddenly, I remembered the phrase that I came up with. Haha...

It causes hell to do good and be good.

I just blurted it out while I was having a discussion with my friends.

Different people will have different meaning of being good, and I have my own definition of the word good itself.

The world changes, so does people. We, as a merely human being tend to change according to our surrounding. Seeing people being good, we tend to be like them. And likewise.

As much as I hate it, but it's true. Untuk menjadi baik dan berbuat baik bukan sesuatu yang mudah. Susah! Payah! Perit! Semua rasa bergumpal menjadi satu. Apatah lagi bila nak mengajak orang lain untuk sama membuat kebaikan. Lagi payah bila empunya badan sendiri tak sudi untuk berubah. Berganda-ganda rasa putus asa bergumpal dalam hati. Lama-kelamaan, hanya mampu memandang dari jauh, dan mengharap yang terbaik.

Ya ALLAH, tetapkan hatiku untuk terus berada di jalanmu!